Thursday, January 27, 2022

Where are you taking us?

We've driven past it a hundred times on our way to pick up our daily bread. In the shadow of the baroque Basilica in Weissenau, it pokes out onto the sidewalk next to tree-lined grounds of the Heilanstalt--literally "healing place"--or sanatorium. 

But the grey bus didn't mean anything to us until we read the plaque nearby:

"The so-called “Euthanasia-Action” (Aktion T 4) of the National Socialists claimed about 200,000 mentally ill victims during World War II. They were considered 'not worthy of living.' At least 90,000 patients died of hunger or inadequate nourishment, or were murdered with drugs in state-run sanatoriums. More than 70,000 men, women, and children were murdered in gas chambers during the secret operation 'T4' in 1940/41. The mass murder was centrally organized at Tiergartenstraße 4 in Berlin - thus the abbreviation 'T4.' Grafeneck, Brandenburg, Bernburg, Hartheim (near Linz), Sonnenstein, and Hadamar were the towns where the murders took place. Some of the staff of these killing institutions later worked in extermination camps such as Auschwitz, Treblinka, Sobibor, and Belzec. There is hardly a region in Germany that was not affected by this organized mass murder. Mentally and physically handicapped people were the first victims of a systematic, well-organized annihilation plan directed against the ill and those regarded as “racially inferior” by the Nazi regime. The 'Monument of the Grey Busses' serves as a reminder of the transports of the patients to their deaths. Artists Horst Hoheisel and Andreas Knitz designed the monument for the Weißenau Psychiatric Centre near Ravensburg in 2006. A bus based on the same model as the one that drove from the hospitals to the death centres in the years 1940 and 1941, in its original size and concrete form, commemorates the mass murder. 'Where are you taking us?' – The question of one of the patients -- is inscribed on the monument." 

Years before, after taking in the Holocaust Museum in Washington, D.C., we had entered the family surname in the database. One name popped: Lorenz Hellstern--in Weißenau. 

Lorenz was born August 26, 1878, in the village of Betra, the tenth and last child of Ambrose and Maria (née Maier) Hellstern. He was baptized at 3 days of age in the Catholic church there. Both his parents died before they turned 50; he had seven living siblings, so presumably the family cared for him. The next record found for him is in 1939, in the German Minority Census: he is a patient in the Heilanstalt Weissenau. The last mention of Lorenz is found is March 2, 1940 in a list of NS euthanasia victims in Grafenek. He was 62.




Friday, January 21, 2022

Language barrier

My mother was the family historian, and when she passed on, I inherited dozens of sepia-toned photographs. And then there were the "contemporary" albums of her family's new house with her 1955 BelAir in the carport, and dusty kids in keds camping in the Redwood forests of California. And the envelopes of odd-sized school pictures, because even back then you had to buy 24 wallet photos in order to get two 5x7s--one for each set of grandparents. 

But of all the boxes of sepia corseted women, mustached gentlemen, and posed children, my favorite is a blurry film snapshot taken by a cousin at our wedding reception. My father, who spoke no German, is deep in discussion (about ankles? Argyle socks?) with my husband's Aunt Elfriede, who spoke no English. He was a Navy guy who grew up riding cable cars in San Francisco; she was a farmer's wife in a village in Swabia. And yet they are clearly connecting. When I asked each of them what they had found to talk about, they deflected. Dad said something about not needing language to understand each other. 

They are both on the other side of the rainbow bridge, and perhaps now, free of any language barrier, she and my father can continue the conversation. 





Tuesday, January 18, 2022

Thank you card

The story begins in a cheesy faux lodge-pole hotel room in Iowa's Quad Cities. We had just arrived and had flopped on the bed to plan our next few days. We knew we wanted to go to the local cemetery and "meet" some folks with DH's surname. Once connected to our complimentary wifi, I got a notification that someone had left me a message on Ancestry. Indeed, it was a user name that I recognized from my digging into the local dead folks, and she was offering information! DH immediately parsed the user name and did a bit of sleuthing on the book of face, and we surmised they were in the same town where we had just landed. 

I took a chance, and reached out--yes, indeed, they were local. And yes, they knew the graves we were seeking, since they are family. We met at the cemetery the next day, and they led us to the family plot as well as sharing stories about their visit to the family village--the same one DH's father was born in. We chuckled at the physical resemblances of our related husbands, and our grey-haired genealogical geekiness. We ended up spending most of the day together, eating lunch, telling stories, having ice cream, telling stories, etc. We have kept in touch, sharing information, parsing old German handwriting, and sharing our trees. 

So it was only natural that when we ventured to the Midwest last fall, we should visit. They opened up their (new!) home to us, shared their grandkids (yes, we tested first!) and even helped right a fallen stone from my side of the family. Because of course we were visiting a cemetery together.

I have a myriad of excuses for not sending a timely thank you card for their hospitality, so when we headed to Betra this December, I decided I must find a postcard of the town and send it. But none such card was to be found in the village. However, in the unsorted box of photos and ephemera from Tante's house (more on that treasure trove later) was a bunch of stationery, including a postcard of our little village from many years ago. 

It's headed to Iowa now as a thank you.

 

Monday, January 17, 2022

Cold leads

I am as cold as I have ever been before, but even our sons agree, this was an afternoon well spent. 

We set out early to head to the town in Southern Germany where my research indicates all Hellsterns originate. There was a dusting of snow, so we all layered up with longies and everything we had that might protect us from the cold. 

We arranged to meet up with a motley crew of history and genealogy buffs, and the oldest Hellstern in the village, who lives with her son on the edge of the village. 

It is snowing hard on the Autobahn, to the point that we can’t always drive on bare pavement. But Germans are efficient, and plows and salting trucks are out in force, even on a Sunday. There's even a little plow on the sidewalk.

Today's car game is to look for businesses with their surname, and we don’t have to wait long: it’s on the side of a snowplow that makes it possible for us to get into the village. We park in the town square, and meet up with our history buff, and together we walk the kids up to the old, now empty home where their Opa and Tante lived. We know it will soon be sold by the last son (who has no children), so we take lots of pictures and talk about when they got to drive the tractor and climb the cherry tree and stuff their faces with their Tante's warm Hefezopf

Cousin Ursula arrives with her husband in tow, and produces a 1970s orange vintage thermos casserole with lovely ham and cheese pastries still warm from her oven. Reinvigorated by the warm snack, we head to the latest cousin we have connected with, who lives with his elderly mother. We hope she can help identify some old pictures.

We arrive, and after explaining that we cannot come in (we are vaccinated, boosted and tested, but we are also traveling), they invite us to the back yard terrace, which overlooks the (currently snowy) rolling fields. Soon, someone brings out a table so we can look at notes and sketch a tree to figure out how we are related. The elder takes a while to figure it out (too many people with the same name!) but we eventually realize we are all related, except for our resident historian, though we decide he is probably a distant cousin—we just need to do more research.

Cousin Ursula ducks back to her car, and emerges with the orange casserole, and a huge cake (Käsecreme with meringue). At which point our new cousin's wife organizes chairs, and scurries around and produces plates, cups, and thermoses of steaming coffee and tea.

Yet another cousin joins us, and helps reduce the amount of cake, the new cousin’s son sticks his head out, and the conversation restarts as we tell him how he is related to everyone. Many jokes about the American "uncle" and tons of pictures.

We were thinking we might visit a nearby castle, but it is clear that is for another (warmer) day. The ham and cheese pockets are gone, there is one fat slice of cake left, and most of us cannot feel our toes. It is time to take one last group photo and say our goodbyes. 

It will take a few hours to warm up completely, and even more hours to research my copious notes, but we have laid a foundation for further collaboration—emails are already flying and scans of sepia images are filling our inboxes. 







Monday, October 18, 2021

Extended Family

When my father married my mother, he brought with him a mostly-furnished house in San Francisco's Sunset District, a sweet mother, and a cat. By the time I met her, Kitty was an elderly brown tabby with a white face and kidney damage from eating some unspecified poison under the sink. Her diet was special cans of food from the vet. I assume she was named by the same young man—my father—as his boyhood dog, named Poochie.


Poochie

Kitty was queen of the roost, and nothing my well-bred mother could do would have made it any different. Mom could set the table with sterling silver and the good china, but Kitty would still sit in my father’s lap at the table. Not only that, if there was a piece of fat that he trimmed off his portion, it would find its way to the bottom of the plate, where a delicate paw would reach up and take it.

Kitty had a shabby Victorian overstuffed chair that was hers and hers alone. It sat along the long-windowed wall in our mid-century modern house in Saratoga, and afforded her sunshine the whole day. She tolerated us children during the day, but when Daddy came home, she was his shadow: in the kitchen, in the bedroom, mowing the lawn, pruning the orchard, napping in front of the TV.

Somewhere during this time, we got a second cat—a large grey tabby kitten, long and lithe, especially when compared to the matronly Kitty. My brother was responsible for naming her Tigger—the Disney movie had just come out and it did seem she had springs in her legs. Kitty did not like Tigger, and hissed at her every time they passed. Tigger was relegated to the sunbeams on the floor, even if the chair was unoccupied.

One evening, Kitty didn’t seem well, and in the morning, we learned that her kidneys had completely failed. As it was a weekend, taking her to the vet was not an option, so my father took her outdoors after we had gone to bed, and shot her. He was really broken up about it. He buried her behind the garage, next to his puttering shed. (Years later, an internet search of the property revealed the shed had made way for an ostentatious kitchen. In case the owners were wondering who they dug up.)

Tigger liked being an only cat and lived a long life. She moved to Redding with us and enjoyed the intense sun rays and the chair that had been Kitty’s. She even came camping with us in the summer—I don’t know how my parents managed to keep her near camp, as she never wore a leash, but there is a picture of a young me in my bathing suit holding Tigger. I still have the scar that came from holding her while Mom used her light meter to set up the picture.

One weekend, my mother and father went up to their rural acreage near Oak Run to putter, as was their habit. They chatted with the neighbor, who offered them a kitten from his calico litter. Mom took the most energetic girl, hoping she would help with the mouse problem in the cabin. The kitten promptly curled up behind the door and slept the entire afternoon away. And then she came home with them.

We kids were of course delighted—a kitten is so much fun! She played! We made toys from string and paper, and she chased us through the house. Tigger was not amused, but was marginally kinder to the young cat than Kitty had been with her. With such a tiny body, her purr was very loud, so she was named Butternut (after the brand of coffee they bought, and because she sounded like a coffee grinder)—by my mother.

As went many things in our family, my mother tried to maintain a sense of dignity and propriety, but it never really dovetailed with life with my father and her two feral children. Butternut became Butt-Butt, and eventually just plain Butt. Poor mom. Butt was a fun cat—never did any mousing!—but on hot days she would go for a dip in the pool in the morning. Because it was a Doughboy pool with a vinyl liner, my dad finally put in a permanent ladder so she wouldn’t damage the liner with her claws getting out.

I don’t recall when Tigger died, but it was a quiet slipping away, and she was buried in the family pet cemetery with a passel of goldfish and guinea pigs in the yard of our Redding house. Butt came with us in the move to Portland, Oregon, and quickly adjusted to being an only cat. Our new house had casement windows that cranked open, and we would leave the kitchen window ajar in fine weather, so we didn’t have to open and close doors for her. By now we kids were in high school, and there wasn’t always someone home to come to her beck and call.

Beginning in Redding, there was always a dog in our lives too (much to the cats’ disdain). One time in the hills east of Redding, we were heading home when Mom spotted a black nose in a three-foot snowbank by the side of the road. A shivering Australian shepherd had been abandoned, so we welcomed her into the back of the Scout. She promptly got sick all over us. A trip to the vet, flea combing and vaccines, and we had ourselves a dog--sweet and neurotic (clearly abused). Mom named her Scombre, telling us that it was the French verb for how she loved to plow through the snow with her nose. I have never verified this, nor do I want to.

Scombre was my father’s shadow, and he loved it. They were inseparable on weekends, exploring, swimming, mowing the lawn. We were her sheep, and she herded us in hallways of the house—she would even nip us if we didn’t behave. This prompted Mom to decide the dog needed obedience training. Scombre passed; our father failed. Scombre followed us to Portland, where she and Butt were joined by a chinchilla—a reject that my mother adopted from someone at church, and promptly named Reepicheep.

But nothing stays the same, and little sheep grow up. First, my brother went to college. Then it was my turn to head out. During my freshman year I picked up a boyfriend whose cat had had kittens. One of them was clearly defective, and his father was planning to drown it. The long-haired calico runt came home with me. She had palsy, which meant she couldn’t walk a straight line. But she was sweet and smart, and I kept her and dumped the boy when I moved out my sophomore year. I named her Boxer because she liked playing in boxes. By now you have noted our family is not talented in the naming pets department.

When I moved abroad, Boxer boarded with my parent’s menagerie. For a while, she had my father carrying her up and down stairs (going down was a painful experience for her and anyone watching). He finally stapled some industrial felt in a strip along the edge of the stairs so she could stop her falls with her claws.

Butt was NOT amused by this sweet creature and avoided her whenever possible. Scombre thought of her as another tiny sheep, and learned that if you herded it too hard, it would fall over.

The first to leave us was Butt. While I was in college, my parents came to a performance, and after it was over, let me know they had put her down. Boxer went out one day while I was abroad, and never came back. And then it was Scombre’s turn. Her hips were failing, and she was having trouble controlling her bladder. It was clear the time was near, so my father took a Friday afternoon off and took her to the vet to put her down. Daddy came home with an impossibly small cardboard box and buried her in the side yard under the forget-me-nots next to Butt.

I was home that weekend, and watched my father get up and make his coffee, put on his boots, and get the lawn mower. He did one round of the lawn and flopped down on the lawn to rest—as was his habit. But this time, there was no dog to play with while he drank his coffee and smoked his pipe. He got up, did another round, and flopped down. Then he got up, went inside, and poured himself a whiskey. I think Mom put the mower away later.

My parents went on to adopt other animals: Mollie, the lovely, sweet Aussie that was “Dog of the Week” in the newspaper in Portland—who was very pregnant and rewarded our altruism with seven puppies. When it was time for them to find homes, Daddy, freshly retired, would play with the puppies on the front lawn when the school bus dropped off kids. It worked the charm. Down to two puppies, a round Indian man, who was looking for a walking companion took the roundest of the puppies (Freckles) and we saw them walking the neighborhood for years. And the smallest, BD#2 (Brown Dog #2) stayed with her mama. Unfortunately, when we sent Mama Mollie to the vet for spaying, she bled out on the table.

BD#2 was re-dubbed Peggy after a woman in church that my father admired, though we could never tell her that. Peggy was their retirement dog, moving back down to California with them. When Peggy passed on, she was replaced by Nellie, another “Dog of the Week” from the newspaper--Redding this time. Nellie was a compact and gentle Aussie, and happily helped him explore the hills in rural Shasta County. She also patiently watched over him during his decline and delighted in the young grandchildren we provided to play with. She was a regular at church, quietly curling up under Daddy’s seat with his oxygen tank.

Daddy had also adopted a stray mama calico kitty who had moved her litter to under the portable building where he volunteered for the historical society. He spent a week feeding her and building trust, and then brought her home (her kittens went to the Humane Society). He named her Hester, as her litter was clearly the result of adultery.

Somewhere along the way, my mother adopted twin tabby boys, and they were dubbed Stan and Ollie. Essentially useless paperweights, they had to be locked up at night to prevent them from crowding my parents out of bed.

The winter my father died was the year of the tainted pet food: While Stan had died the year before, Nellie, Hester, and Ollie succumbed to the poison. Loosing so much was hard on my mother. She adopted a small, shy black cat who had been declawed. An indoor cat who was afraid of anybody but my mother, she was named Spook: quite inappropriate, but par for the course with an Alzheimer’s patient. Spook accompanied Mom into assisted living, and when she had to be put down because of a brain tumor, my mother was given a stuffed toy cat that filled the role.

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After Boxer, I spent several years overseas. On my return, we didn’t have the means to have a pet. But the year we both landed jobs and purchased our first (project) house, my Dear Husband surprised me with three birthday presents: a table saw, a pot of Shasta daisies, and a trip out to Monroe where he had reserved the last of the litter for me. A pure white short hair, we named her Milka after the German chocolate brand. She was small, affectionate and brave, and even treed a racoon when she was still a kitten. She was a great lap cat and deeply affected when we brought a baby boy home that displaced her from my lap. She finally got over it, and the boy learned to open a tuna can, he was acceptable. She slept in a red basket with a bright blue sweater, and it was there she passed away quietly in her sleep.

We lasted a few months without a cat, then the weekend after Thanksgiving, while everyone else was shopping for giant TVs, we headed to the Humane Society to see what was on offer. The boys were enthralled with a tuxedo kitten, and while they were playing, a quiet adult Siamese with impossibly blue eyes came and curled up on Alfred’s lap. She came home with us.

Hannah (the name given to her at the shelter) was a sensitive and direct cat with a checkered past. After the first few weeks, when she was making sure we wouldn’t leave her, she was always an arm’s distance from us—the corner of the bed, the other end of the sofa, and on her signature velvet pillow under the cedar trees on the deck, where she took her last breaths just this weekend.


Hannah


 

Saturday, December 5, 2020

Jessie Dewey Cutting (Richardson)

by Madge Richardson Walsh, 2001

Jessie Dewey Cutting was born in San Francisco on November 5, 1895, in the apartment building her grandfather Cutting built next door to his home (both were still standing in the 1980s). Jessie was the third of five children, with two older sisters and two younger brothers. Her parents were not particularly happy at having another girl; when her proud father had rhapsodized in the family Bible over the birth of the first two girls, endowing them with lovely names — Marjorie Adele, Ida Mary — number three was recorded simply as "another girl." No mellifluous name for her, either: she was named Jessie after her mother. 


The Cutting home was in Honolulu, where her father, Eugene Cutting, worked as a sugar broker. When Jessie was about 11, and after the 1906 San Francisco earthquake and fire, they moved permanently to the mainland. Her mother had made regular visits to San Francisco to have her children; all these trips except the last were made in sailing ships.

In the Bay Area, they had a house on Nace Avenue in Piedmont, and Jesse went to the Piedmont Avenue School. 

Another disappointment developed: Jessie was born with congenital bilateral hip dysplasia in which the hip fails to make a socket for the thigh bone, and could not walk until a specialist operated on her when she was three. For one hip, the operation was successful; the other was not so, and she always walked with a limp. In her later years, arthritis compounded the pain, and her movements were restricted and she tired easily.  

This was not a period where women were encouraged to go to college, but Jessie persuaded her parents to let her attend what was then the California School of Arts And Crafts. This was during the tenure of Frederick Meyer, of Perham Nahl, and Xavier Martinez. Despite little support for her work, she did finish school, and did her practice teaching in art at University High School in Oakland, and then went into commercial art. She illustrated such new clothing fashions for Capwell’s department store sale brochures. 

Capwell's Advertisement, Oakland Tribune, Oct. 13, 1922

We have two of her oil paintings, one a still life exercise, the other the tawny hills and oak trees in the Piedmont uplands. While her active art career was brief, she remained a wonderful teacher, as her patience was infinite.

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Jessie died in 1984; in a gesture of his deep love for her, Russell established a scholarship at her alma mater, which is now known as the California College of the Arts. The Jessie Cutting Richardson Memorial Scholarship is awarded annually to 1-3 full-time students who are either U.S. citizens or eligible noncitizens and who demonstrate financial need and academic merit at CCA. Her family continue to donate to the fund so that her memory may remain alive in the hearts and hands of its many recipients.